Our ability to love will lie right in our willingness to be inconvenienced.

Her words echo in the messy bedroom, unfolded clothes on my bed and a half organized desk beside me.

Our ability to love will lie right in our willingness to be inconvenienced.

I must confess I am not willing to be inconvenienced most days. Most days I list the things to do in the small little box in my agenda, and if things fall in between them I am not always so eager to move the list around.


I carry grocery bags to the apartment and I barely muster a hello to the neighbour that lives down the hall.

I chat with the Italian man in line at the art gallery, but only until the warm hand I want to hold falls back beside me and I choose him instead.

I could talk to the student beside me, but I find my phone and an empty hallway until class begins again.

I say all of this not to add a burden to my heart, or another to-do on my list – but I just never want to get lost only seeing myself and missing the others.

I don’t want to be so stuck in my life that I miss. the. others.

This heart needs to be inconvenienced. In a new world, with so much to do, I need it to be broken to remind me of what this life is about. I need eyes to look deep into and see the soul that lies within.

(I am terrified of this prayer. I am terrified to ask Him to turn my face to see their eyes instead of my life. I am terrified of what it might cost.)


And yet I can pray no other prayer than to ask God to inconvenience me. To interrupt my plans and my life to let me see. 

Somehow I think I’ll find more of Him in those moments. In conversations with strangers. Into what I don’t know, the messy places of peoples’ hearts I am afraid to venture into.


“When we stop looking at people in the eyes, we dehumanize them into projects,” Eugene Cho said into our echoing chapel days ago. I don’t want to stop looking at people in the eyes. Tears brimmed my eyes when he said those words and they echo in my ears still today.

Lord – inconvenience me – 

and may I always be one who stops to look people in the eyes